Here is what I wrote in my journal, Monday morning, 24 October 2016. with a few interjected notes inserted in bold italicized type.
Reason steps in, and reason is the lying son (in the Bible) who refused to hear the instruction of the Lord, who said to the seers ‘See not’… and said to the prophets ‘Prophesy not to us what is right; speak to us smooth things.’ Speak to us and tell us the prophesies of illusion. (Neville Goddard, from his lecture “Where Are You From?”)
I had about three cups of coffee this morning– big 16 oz mugs– and I feel like my mind wants to go “all over the place.” I see tasks that I could undertake and I start in on them and then get impatient. All this head stuff… meanwhile, the work of imagination and spirit and knowing is there, for me to delve into or neglect.
That Neville lecture I quote from above is really fantastic. It’s about how we cycle and recycle until we discover who and what we are.
Recycle = we keep reliving this life until we wake up to the fact that we are God, and in that awakening, we choose differently. This recurrence is what Neville refers to in this lecture as “the wheel.”
I hear all of this teaching, and I even parrot some of it back, but my EXPERIENCE has not yet reflected my knowing of the truth. Because, I suppose, I haven’t fully put it into practice. And so a lot of the time, I honestly feel like I’m kind of sleepwalking, or maybe going between a state of sleep and one where I’m waking up… but never really fully awake… I have chosen time and again to go back to the dream and sleep, walking around life kind of drowsy… meanwhile… I’m delving into these teaching, which really do scream WAKE UP!!!
In that lecture I read, Neville quote Ecclesiastes 1:9-11…
What had been is what will be, and what has been done is what will be done; and there is nothing new under the sun. Is there a thing of which it is said, “See, this is new”? It has been already, in the ages past. There is no remembrance of former things, nor will there be any remembrance of later things yet to happen among those who will come after.
…and then he says…
That I am moving toward that same thing on a wheel of recurrence, that same thing in this world of Caesar, and only Divine Mercy can redeem me from the wheel.
And then he quotes William Blake, from Blake’s epic work Jerusalem…
What seems to be, Is, to those to whom it seems to be, and is productive of the most dreadful consequences to those to Whom it seems to Be, even of torments, despair, and Eternal Death; but then Divine Mercy steps beyond and redeems Man in the body of Jesus.
“So here,” Neville says, “the wheel returns.”
So we’re cycling through…
Or let me start again…
As long –I am told– as long as I believe that “what seems to be, is,” I’m going to continue to cycle. So what’s the solution? Neville says “Revision.” He said that he believed the concept and practice of revision would be his greatest contribution (to metaphysics), and I’ve only started to actively explore and employ it.
Revision is imaginally recreating an incident or experience so that it conforms to our desired reality. This is how patterns get changed.
If I have an experience that I find unsuitable in some way, and I react to it as if “what seems to be is,” then I’m recreating that experience. I see this repeatedly. My tendency a lot of times, when I’ve had a bad experience, is to try to analyze and look for a specific imaginal act that may have been its cause. But perhaps the cause is not a specific imaginal act, but the feeling of “here we go again,” which in effect sends FORWARD the prayer request” of “more of the same, please.”
And (now) I open at random to a page in Neville’s book Seedtime and Harvest, and I read this:
“Luck! Coincidence!” shouts Cain. No. Abel knows that these are names given by those who have no faith, to the works of faith.
“We walk by faith, not by sight.” – II Corinthians 5:7
When reason and the facts of life oppose the idea you desire to realize and you accept the evidence of your senses and the dictates of reason as the truth, you have brought the Lord– your consciousness– the gift of Cain. It is obvious that such offerings do not please Him.
Life on earth is a training ground for image making. If you see only the molds which your senses dictate, there will be no changes in your life.
That’s the cycle right there. I see “what is,” which is actually just “what seems to be,” and when I choose to believe that “what seems to be, is,” the cycle recreates.
From that lecture (“Where Are You From?”) again, where Neville quoted another work of Blake:
So Los beheld the vision, and he was faithful to the vision in times of trouble. So when you go through (trouble), know it has happened and happened and happened, but you have no memory… We aren’t going to change His dream for us, but we can modify and change within the framework of His dream the things we will encounter. And if I use the Law wisely I will avoid repetition tomorrow when the wheel turns again…
So I say: if there is one thing I have been brought into this world to tell you, it is the secret of revision: that if something today is unpleasant, you don’t like it, don’t let it slip by.
The Bible speaks of “redeeming the time.” Every moment, if it is unpleasant, it should be redeemed, because you are going to meet it tomorrow as the wheel turns. So don’t let the night descend and catch you with the unredeemed day. Take the day and redeem it… If the shell isn’t yet broken by the series of events which detaches you from this wheel of recurrence, then revise the day. So that next time when the wheel comes around you aren’t going to relive the unpleasant thing of this moment in time.
This isn’t license for bad behavior (“I can do this because I’ll just revise it”) but the way to change PATTERNS. I see a pattern of behavior that needs changed. So I revise. I don’t want to keep repeating that pattern, and if I feel compelled to make certain choices, then there’s a cycle that needs broken, and an opportunity for redemption.
I imagined– felt– her holding me… and me telling her how lost I felt during this time. I can sense her and feel that in my mind’s eye.
And so — I’m told– it’s done.
I’m sure I’ll write more about this… this journal entry wasn’t meant to be conclusive or definitive. I hope it gave you a little insight.
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